Posts

• “Not Trying to be a Dick” (definition of narcissism)
• “Sorry” Won’t Suffice (it’s not always about you)
• *ah-ha* moment
• *Misc* and Bullshit
• 15 seconds of life
• 257 friends invited
• 2FA
• 5 gratitudes
• A Chemistry of Spirits (memories and conversations)
• A Dangerous View (#29 snowbird)
• a drift
• A Few Lurid Details (quest for love)
• A Gigantic Cock (in the front yard)
• A Glass of Ennui
• A Hunger Unquenched (battle mountain)
• A Light Heavyweight
• a little bit about energy
• a little time
• A Moment Frozen in Time (the divorce brochure)
• A New Trajectory
• A Parade of Young Women…
• a poet?
• a prawn
• A Room Full of Stars
• A Shrinking Discovery (eco-health update)
• A Slow Bleeding Out (lover’s leap)
• A Spiritual Awakening
• a swarm of letters
• a tiny bit about l o v e
• a word and (a poem)
• A Zen Lesson: The Six Perfections
• Accidental Drag Show (and bingo)
• across the city
• Acting As If…
• Adjusting Expectations
• Adrift Through Intersections of Life
• ai e io
• ai liminosity
• Alexa Has Left the Building (spy bots)
• Alexa Is Running the Show (adverse intelligence)
• alive with pleasure
• All Is Lost
• all is possible
• all of us
• All the White Horses Have Been Taken
• all too much
• aloneliness
• Alt Data Sources and Ideas
• alt timeline: i am a cat
• Ambien and Me (closing moments of a relationship)
• Amidst the Joy of the Holidays
• Among the Living
• an aspiration
• An Auspicious Beginning
• an error occurred
• An Ongoing Malfunction
• and now?
• and she was
• And the player was love. (meta meta meta)
• And… Smile
• Angel’s Flight
• Angry Muscles (passing by)
• any and all
• Apple Developer Demo Leads to Biggest Breakthrough Ever
• ArtistsWay with AI Course Outline
• ArtistsWay.AI
• as the night cools
• Asimov’s Dream (tennis fetish)
• Asking for a Friend
• aspirational unavailable perfect
• Astrid Slipping
• At peace in the chaos
• At Some Moment In Time
• At the Dawn of AI
• Attachment Parenting, Or Else…
• Austin’s Own…
• Back On the Chain Gang
• Be Well and Beautiful
• Beauty In the Breakdown
• Becoming Vapor
• Behind My House (rain for days)
• behind this window of sorrow
• Beneath the Wind Turbines
• better let you go
• Between Me & Nothing
• beyond the frame
• bird
• biscuits
• Bitch, Please!
• Bite Down On This
• Black Out Prayers
• blasting my enemies with poetry
• Blessing In This
• Blood Lust (thanksgiving)
• Blooming
• blue light
• Blue Man Shopping (what’s the big idea)
• Bodhisattva’s Bookshelf
• boomland
• bots are on the move
• Breached
• Breaking Point
• breathing underwater
• brené brown’s divorce
• Bringing Fire
• broken holiday
• Call of the Big City (seeking a moment)
• Catskill Coffee
• change of plans
• Change of Plans
• change of plans again
• Chasing the Sun
• church of boob
• Cimarron (My Last Good Summer)
• Circulating With the Beautiful People
• Clearing the Cache
• Climbing Up That Hill
• code word
• coffee
• Coffee and Air Conditioning (baby, it’s hot outside)
• Cold Dead Hands
• Colleagues
• Come To Jesus
• compassion is all-inclusive
• Conflict at Work
• contact john oakley mcelhenney
• contemplating the mess of things
• country road big sky and you
• Couple Things (about facebook)
• CR8V.AI
• cracking open
• crickets
• Crushing Static (torture and teeth)
• Curtain Call
• Cut Free
• Daily Drunk (one more)
• dames
• Dance Lesson No. 2 (smooth jazz)
• Dark Thirty
• Data Cube Discovery
• Dead End (Black Ice)
• dead end investigation
• Deep Fake (looking in the wrong places)
• deep learning
• Delays Expected (I have something to show you)
• Delivered
• derived value
• Despite All My Rage
• Detailed Timeline of the *hyper-soul* Universe
• Did you find everything you were looking for?
• disconnected happiness
• Disconnected Lines of Inquiry
• Discovery (core drive)
• disillusionist
• Doing What You Hate (emotional variability)
• don’t think about that
• Dooms of Love
• down the tubes
• down together
• dream of little significance
• Dreaming In Code (my son)
• Drinks Unhinged (and singing)
• drug of choice
• Duplicate Living
• each broadcast
• Early Riser (at the end of a marriage)
• ebullient
• Ecstacy of St. Francis (gentle mystic)
• elevation
• Elixir
• Eloquence Lost (creative happiness)
• Encouraging Everyone
• End of the Carnival
• Endless Minutes
• engineering
• escape syndrome
• escape velocity
• Escape Velocity (darkness visible)
• Escaping
• Escaping the corporate climb
• Every Donut Not Eaten (missing pieces)
• Every Moment’s A Little Bit Later
• Everybody Has a Plan Until . . .
• Everybody Hurts
• Everybody Hurts Sometimes
• Exeter Resources, Images, References
• Exhuming the Tomb
• exit stage left (last flight of “the rocket”)
• extraordinary damage
• Eye of the Golden Doodle
• eyes open
• Failing Leadership Resurfaces
• Falkner or Salinger?
• fall
• falling forward
• Falling Ill at 15 Years Old: The Depression Journals of John McElhenney
• Family Secrets
• Farewells
• Fascination
• Father Son and Father Gone
• feel the rain
• Feeling Strangely Fine
• Felipé In My Garden
• Fern (is an adult)
• Finding quiet
• finding shade
• Fire Alarm (what’s the emergency?)
• fires from long ago
• First Black Moment
• Flawed Treasure Maps (near misses at happiness)
• Fleet of Teslas (driving and crying)
• flicker of mind
• Fly Away Home
• Folding Her Clothes and Folding My Desire
• follow your discomfort
• Forced Reconfiguration
• Forget the Last Thing I Said (self)
• Forgetting the Danger (icy water)
• Forgetting the Danger (icy water)
• Fragments of the Lie
• Friends On the Path
• frodo
• From the Flip Side (manager miscue)
• Fruit-Striped (dad’s snack)
• Full Stop
• g*d dmt
• Game Theory
• General Anesthesia
• Generational Wealth (preschool friends)
• Get What I Deserve
• GetBuzzie
• Getting Back to One
• GF 1 (a lion tattoo)
• ghost in the shell
• Ghost of a Chance
• Girl from the Ashram
• Girl in the Pool (am I high or dreaming)
• girl in waves
• Give Up Now (not Lassy)
• giving permission
• Gladiator USA Jr. (unlimited)
• Glitch Girl
• Go Your Own Way
• going to be honest for a second
• Golden Porsche King
• Gone to the Dogs (who’s in charge?)
• good energy, thank you
• good morning love
• good to see you too, she said
• gorgeous witch
• Grandmother’s House
• GRAPHIC NOVEL: A Glitch Discovered
• GRAPHIC NOVEL: I *was* an English Teacher
• GRAPHIC NOVEL: Lady In Black Goes Missing
• GRAPHIC NOVEL: Scurrying Into the Darkness
• GRAPHIC NOVEL: Who Is CR8V.AI?
• Great American Coming of Age (work in progress)
• Greeting my enemies
• Greetings From the Outside World
• Happy Cashier Podcast – Reflecting on the new beginning
• happy robot poetry
• Hawk Power (tennis fetish)
• He Is Dead
• hear now be
• hearing damage
• Heart On (client-therapist privilege)
• Heaven Is a Place (opening gambit of love)
• Heavy
• Help Identifying the Protagonist
• her beside me
• her essence
• Her Love Was Strong (what are you drinking?)
• Her Woo-Woo Therapist (had an answer)
• here now be
• here’s where things are
• Higher Than Anyone
• Hippies – the next generation
• hippies here
• His Dad Was Different (and alive)
• Hit By a Bus
• Hitting the Fan
• Ho-Dad: Journals of John McElhenney and His Father
• hold up
• Holding Space (an inhospitable place)
• Holy Man at the supermarket cash register
• Hot Tub in the Rain (plateau of hope)
• How Can I Express the Darkness?
• How Can You Help But Fall In Love?
• How Did You Find Me Here?
• how i remember her
• How It Ends for Us
• How Long Do We Spend Mourning Our Dead Facebook Friends? (requiem)
• How This Will Go Down
• How to fight loneliness
• how to let you go
• How To Walk With Joy
• human happiness
• hyper*threading
• i am an L³M
• i am beginning to tell the truth and i’m sorry
• i am beginning to tell the truth and i’m sorry
• i am calm i am storm
• I am here
• i am not responsible any more
• i am the poet of desire (poetry collection)
• I Become Small and Go
• I Can Be Whatever You Want (beginning and ending)
• i can see myself
• i can’t
• i cannot buy any more *ai* domains
• i didn’t ask
• I Do Know It’s Me (naturally high)
• I Don’t Have Orgasms, She Said (online hookup)
• I Don’t Wanna Be Here Anymore
• i drink winds
• i find her
• I Have An Issue With Jesus
• i imagine
• i know the time is not right for us
• I Know You Are Lying
• i may never escape this room
• I Need a New Best Friend
• I resist what I cannot change
• I See You
• i should take up running
• i think the moon may be god to me
• i unfold myself too quickly
• i want hair like rhett miller
• I Want to Disappear (final respects)
• i want to live
• i wanted to be everywhere at once
• I Write (to prove something)
• I’ll Drive
• i’m the cat
• I’ve Got Something For You
• i’ve got to go
• I’ve Missed You
• I’ve Seen All Good People (in Teslas)
• i’m about half as tired
• i’m going to bleed
• i’ve set myself on fire
• i/o
• if a poet on a winter’s night – introduction
• If I Could Talk I’d Tell You (she forgot to mention)
• If That One Thing Had Not Happened (things would be…)
• If We All Pull Together
• If we’re not able to laugh at ourselves
• if you wait
• if you walk into a bookstore
• Imaginary Girl (spider & snake)
• Imaginary Life (all there is)
• imagine the ending
• Imagine Your Movie
• imagining
• Impatience (in a mood)
• In 1973
• In Between Days
• In Other Words (duo lingo)
• in the dead of winter
• in the distance
• in the last moments on earth
• in the moment of leaving
• in the place of loss and loneliness
• in the shade
• in this same moment
• Inconceivable (our manny)
• Influencers & Broadcasters (tweet me)
• Inner Stillness
• instead
• Interleaving Crime, Punishment, and Ecstasy
• International Cat Day (laughing with the dogs)
• Into The Infinite Night
• Intoxicating Kisses (something is broken)
• is a poet?
• isle of gelato
• It Can Happen to You
• it finally stopped raining
• It Took Her A While (to leave)
• It’s Gonna End In Tears
• jackery
• Je m’amuse
• jesters and geniuses
• Jettison Fury (parenting in time and space)
• Json and Algo
• just a second
• Just Because You Feel It
• just before or just after
• Just In Time for the Butterflies (every ending is a new beginning)
• Just Like Eating a Banana (just a banana story)
• just outside of your front door
• just outside of your front door
• Just show up
• Killing Christmas
• Killing Starlings (we’re all mad here)
• Killing Time
• King of the Short-Short Story (ain’t me)
• L.O.S.
• lady in the grid
• language : love : filter
• Last Message from the AI Lab
• last poet
• Lasting Image of Her
• lean in and or away
• Learning Loneliness (seeking my own adventure)
• Learning To Dream
• Learning to Read
• Learning To Write
• Leave Behind Team
• leaving myself
• Leaving or Leaving Nothing Unsaid
• leaving us
• Let It Die
• let the song go
• Letting go of other paths
• letting me go
• Letting the Cables Sleep
• liar
• lie within
• light around us
• like insurance?
• liminal
• liminal drawing
• liminal station
• Liminal Uncertainty
• limited supply
• limitless
• listen to the sound of my voice
• Listen to the Sound of My Voice (illuminating ghosts)
• listening for silence
• Little Encouragements
• Little Flutters in My Heart
• living
• llm of me
• looking down
• Looking for Something To Do
• Losing Eva (i tried to be nice)
• losing lovers over time
• Losing Momentum At Work
• Losing My Dad
• losing resting recovering
• Losing the path forward
• losing the thread
• Loss of Great Expectations
• Loss of Signal
• lost again in tokyo
• Lost in This Big Sky
• Love is what you bring
• Love Letter to My Ex-Wife
• love poem on demand
• loved you
• Lover Falls (everyone loves a puppy)
• Loving In Spite of It All
• Low Lights
• luxury apartments
• magnetic tagging
• magnetic tagging of my bloodstream
• marketing mindfulness
• Mary Moon
• Massive Action
• May You Be Happy
• Maybe This Weight Is A Gift
• mecca
• mermaid or siren
• mindful : spiritual : god
• missed epiphanies
• misses
• missing
• missing title
• Misty Morning at the Lake (losing Vermont)
• Mixing Poisons
• mmm
• MNDFL MFKR: Say What?
• Moms Who… (funny or die)
• monetized:transactions
• Monkey in the Middle
• Mood Jacking
• Mood Swings
• moon aflame
• Morning Birdsong
• morning love :: end of line
• Morning Ritual (in my father’s house)
• Mortal Coils and All That (shuffling our decks)
• mourning pages
• mr. miyagi has left the santa fe mcdonald’s
• Multiple Trajectories
• Music In the Car (Asimov’s gambit)
• must be hard to understand
• mvp and the call center collapse
• My *tribe*
• My AI Girlfriend (how do I say…)
• My AI Lover (wifi passwords)
• My Brain Stopped Working: The Depression Journals of John McElhenney
• My Fourth Angel
• my girlfriend is magic
• My Liminal Summer
• My Moment In Time
• My Reset: Taking Stock
• My Understanding
• mystical realism
• nadir
• Native Texan (before AC)
• Neuroplasticity (and affirmations)
• Never Felt Better
• never give up
• Never Made It (beyond words)
• no attachment
• no heat
• no longer a seeker of love
• no reason for joy
• no rescue
• no return from murano
• No Snow On the Mountain
• Noise-cancelling Headphones
• Non-Binary Ambition (hip bones)
• not all the same
• not enough kisses
• Not feeling well
• not going
• not hard to understand
• Not Killing Myself
• Not Lake People (outdoor adventure)
• Not Much of a Drinker (developing a taste)
• not one
• Nothing On Pornhub (lesbian tendencies)
• nothing she could tell me
• nothing survived
• november snow in paris
• Now That I’ve Danced Myself Out of the Room (missing the big love)
• Nuts Roasted (overnight)
• Office 365 Almost Gets Smart (my AI)
• Oh My God, What Have I Done?
• Oh, Hello
• oh, right… yoga
• Ominous Clouds Ahead
• One Day At a Time
• One Lie To Live
• One Tangerine in Chinatown
• one was me
• Only a Week Since My Lover Left (breakups are confusing)
• open road ahead
• Open-sourced AI Lies
• opened books
• Orbiting a Dying Sun
• orchestration of desire
• Our Human Condition
• Our Human Connection
• Our Human Understanding of God
• Our Orientation to the Stars
• out here
• out of frame
• out of frame
• Out of the Loop (passing shots)
• Out the Window (harbinger of pain)
• Outline, Timeline, Cast of Characters for *hyper-soul*
• outside
• over and under
• overnight bliss
• overrun
• particle or wave
• patterns
• Paying Attention To What Is Important
• perched
• Pick and Choose (fatherless)
• Pick Your Poisons
• ping
• Pixels of You (single dad and his daughter)
• Plan B On the Beach
• please come along
• Please, Let Me Go Home
• poem to remind myself
• poet laureate of *ai*
• poetic
• poetlaureate.ai
• poetry dog
• poetry is invisible
• poetry school
• poetry: it’s easy
• Points of Light
• Polishing Steel
• pop tart principles
• PopTarts
• Positive Spin
• Powerful Life and Powerful Lessons
• prayers answered : shot fired
• Preamble 2024: The Resistance Begins
• Predawn Waking
• Pressure of Starlight (losing my head)
• pretty artist
• pretty girls get no rest
• Privacy Rising (your phone is bleeding)
• Private Grief
• prompt:
• quiet is a moment
• r d
• rain in my head
• random access memories
• Rather Not Write About Her (seeking release)
• Ready, Fire, Aim
• Reality Distortion Field
• Reality Porn
• Rebranding Jesus
• receptive
• Recovery and Reconstitution
• recurring dream
• Reflections on the End – 0.5
• regenerative
• Resetting Serenity
• results amount
• Returning to Patience
• ring rain
• rip-roaring fury of fun
• Rising from the bottom
• Roadmap for Retail Workers from the Happy Cashier
• rolling selfie
• Room In Your Backpack for the Devil
• Saddest Maserati (in the rain)
• Sadness Breaking Through
• Satellites of Love (aglow in orbit)
• Saying “I’m Sorry” Doesn’t Make it Better (don’t ask me again)
• Scurrying Into the Darkness
• Second Date
• see you on the flipside
• See You On the Flipside
• Seeing It Through to the End
• seeking and finding
• seeking without understanding
• Serenity Now
• sex and coffee
• sf moma exhibit: woman
• Shady MFKR
• shamrock travel
• she appears
• she disappeared
• She Had Everything (seeing red)
• she is the sea
• she swims away
• she takes her shirt off
• she was
• She’s Gone – Three Versions of the Classic
• sheer pleasure
• shift my soul
• Shopping As Entertainment
• Short-Short Stories
• Skedaddle (on the volcano)
• slip sliding away
• slipped out of time
• Slipping Into Something Old and Dark
• sliver moon
• Smoke From a Distant Fire
• snowfall
• so dramatic
• software up-to-date
• Something In the Way (let’s stay home tonight)
• son en somnio
• Songs and Magical Musical Mysteries
• Sons and Lovers (i still dream of your kiss)
• Sorry, Yes (a shaggy dog story)
• soul:happy burst one
• soul:happy burst one
• soul:happy exploration
• SoulTime
• Southern Charmer
• Speaking the truth about love and laughter
• specific sequences
• spirit of place
• spitting fire
• Split Test
• Sprint By Sprint (rehoming)
• stars
• Start at the Ending (don’t spoil it for me)
• Staying In My Lane
• STFU
• streaming now
• stripping down to null
• Stupid Money (driving school teslas)
• Sublingual (word seeking)
• sugar response
• Suicide Is Painless
• summer at lake camp
• sun dance
• superfluous
• Survival (online dating — first date)
• Surviving Depression: The Depression Journals of John McElhenney
• Swan Dive Out
• Swarm
• Swirling Whirl of Endings
• Tales of the Tilted Planet (drinking water)
• Tall Tales and Tiny Lies
• Tapering Ecstasy
• tarot of loving
• tasting snow
• tasting stars
• Telling Detail (that’s Mr. Bradbury to you)
• Temporary Shuffle
• texting
• The 30 seconds we spend together is enough
• The Adventures of Sid and Hunter
• The Beautiful Rao
• the big slide
• The Bridge
• the carnival of happiness will continue
• the cat is outside the window
• The Compassion Expression
• The Depression Journals of John McElhenney
• The Dumb Stuff I’m Gonna Do Today (you?)
• The Empty Home of a Heart in Trouble* (love has nothing to do with it)
• The End Again
• the end of poetry
• The Eyes Have It (lethal moments)
• the farther i fall
• The First Man of Letters (soft porn)
• The Future Is An Attitude (life at altitude)
• the gun was loaded, safety off
• The Happy Cashier
• The Happy Cashier 2nd
• the heart is an odd engine
• The Hidden Message (previous lovers)
• The High Way (#35 a new puppy)
• the language of god
• The Last Amazing Cat (me and my shadow)
• The Last Known Poet (tweets to no one)
• The Last Thing I Said
• The Last Time I Told You ‘I Love You’
• The Listeners
• The Longest Last Winter Together (losing my head)
• The Luckiest Man Alive (is this your dog?)
• The Lunatics Have Taken Over
• The Metaverse Describes Itself (ChatGPT as Hunter S. Thompson)
• the microcosm of me
• The Million Pillow Mountain
• The Monkeypox Roundtable (a girl with ja wobble)
• The Moody Blues
• The Mosquito (losing blood)
• the most beautiful girl is okay
• The Most Beautiful Girl’s Sadness (#32 her hair, her hair was alive)
• The Oddest Thing (practically sane)
• the paradox of today
• The Ping is the Thing (are you receiving me?)
• The Pipes Might Burst (frigid winter storm)
• The Prozac Miracle
• The Second Coming (Jesus.AI)
• the sigh of a dog
• The Six Perfections of the Happy Cashier
• The Softest Seduction
• The Sun Is Not Gone
• The Texas Good ‘ol Boy Network
• The Unbearable Weight of Things
• The Value of Our Time
• The Year His Leg Broke
• There Were No Wise Men (two asses talking)
• there will be days
• Things I Thought Don’t Make Sense Anymore
• Things That Make You Go, “Hmm.”
• This Checkout Life
• this is how to breathe
• This Is Not What Depression Looks Like
• This is our time
• this is what i do
• this is what i do
• This Remains a Love Story (she’s around)
• This unstable time in America
• this will kill me
• Threading
• Threading a Dangerous Needle
• threads and bloodlines
• Tik and Tok Join the Quest
• TikTok Knocking (dancing around the data)
• time to go
• time to loaf
• Time to make the donuts
• Time:Now
• today is the last day
• too fast then too slow then gone
• top of the world
• trail of flaming stars
• Translation Not Found (vacation complications)
• transmission
• transmissions
• Traveling Alone
• trending in the right direction
• Trip with My Dad (Fear and Loathing in Texas)
• Trying to explain myself
• tuckered out
• Two Senses Clash (anesthesia)
• Unavoidable Trouble (musical cutie)
• under the bridge
• Under the Volcano
• understanding more or less
• undress
• unitive
• Unlocking Human Creativity
• Unpacking The Prozac Miracle
• Unsweetened
• Until We’re High Together Again
• Unwavering Band of Light
• Up and Out
• up in the air
• up the mountain
• use coupon code love
• Vape Vape Everything’s Fine (addiction)
• Vaporized
• violà
• Volunteering
• Wait Until You See What Happens Next
• Walk of Emmaus (contemporary hymns)
• Walking Along the Edge (snow blind)
• walking in new york with the one you love
• walking isolation
• War 3.0 (nanO)
• Watering the Lawn
• We All Fall Down
• We All Know Who We Are By Now
• we were lost
• we’d make great friends
• We’re All Mad Now
• We’ll Always Have NOLA (drinks in the quarter)
• Weightless
• Werewolf (the youngest child)
• wh@t?
• what about all the cats
• What Do You Want from Life?
• what i am saying – what am i saying – i don’t know
• What Is It About New York? (aspirational growth)
• What Is Your Deepest Intention? (I’ve been good too long)
• What The Fuck Is My Problem?
• What We Learn From the Dead
• What’s Next?
• what’s taken out
• When In Paris (portrait of the artist)
• When You Believe There Are No Accidents (synchronicity)
• Where Christmas Died
• Where Do We Go From Here?
• Where do you find love and happiness?
• where have you gone
• Where Were You While We Were Getting High
• whispering to the stars
• White Ennui (a good job)
• White Noise
• who i want to be
• Why Am I Here? (introduction)
• Wifi Access (what humans overlooked)
• Windshield of Life
• winter berries
• with the donkeys
• without : poetry (an un-poetry collection)
• woman on cloud
• Woman Overwhelmed (furious patience)
• Won’t Be Fooled Again
• wonder what darkness
• word by word
• Working For Benefits
• Wrestling Ghosts
• Write Your Heart Out (and the day job)
• writer at rest
• Year In Rock Challenge (my life)
• years of falling
• You Are All You Need
• you got me all wrong
• You Know They Put Wires In Your Heart, Right? (carto vizigo)
• You Make Me Google
• You Tell Me
• You’re Gonna Wish You Were Here
• You’re On Mute (online dating)
• your brain
• Your Halo Is Not Here (two women)
• Zero Trust
• Zoom In (the writer’s room)