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We are reaching a turning point in this journey. This Tuesday I have three job interviews. One within the global marketing organization of this company, and two in other directions. I know I’m whining a bit. But, I am also trying to understand what is next for me. I have choices, perhaps not within this store with this particular leadership.
Does this picture of my ass make my ass look bigger as I’m walking out the door?
I’m a bit feisty this morning. I don’t want to do my shift at 1:30 to 9:15 today. I will, but I don’t want to.
What I’ve learned along this path.
- Leadership is doing the minimal amount of work to get by
- Poor leaders don’t lead they bumble
- I can do this work and survive even this
- I am here by choice
- I have other choices
As I prepare my exit talk I am certain I will not get an exit interview. Why would they want to learn what went wrong? Why would my perspective provide any value to the store or store leadership? It would, but I won’t be asked.
Today’s update. The company’s third party leave of absence verifier has told me I cannot get excused for my medical emergency because I have not been in my role for 12 months. Huh? Then a few hours later they said I could get the time covered by a medical emergency leave, just not FMLA. “The paper work has been mailed to you.” Oh, that’s reassuring. Meanwhile the interviews continue with a parade of candidates, all of whom they know 99.9% less than then know about me.
What do they know about me?
- I arrive on time
- I don’t miss any shifts or call in late having “over slept my alarm”
- I have fun in the store and my customers seem to enjoy it
- I have fun in the role and my colleagues seem to enjoy it
- I am good at cashiering, they put me in when there is a rush
- I am underemployed
- I am ambitious, does that make me a short-timer?
- I show up and do my job and say “thank you” when assigned a new task
Okay, “Thank You.” I’ll take the next task now. Interviews next week may prove fruitless, however the trending is good. I am being called on my previous high-paying career, and I will eventually secure my release from the grocery life. AND… My manager clearly doesn’t care about keeping me, or giving me a chance to stay. So, he’s not helping me. He’s saying things like, “I hope you can clear up that UPT thing.” (unpaid time off)
“Um,” I want to reply. “You can go a LONG ASS WAY to helping. If you wanted to.”
He doesn’t want to. After vacant his assessment and denial of even being considered for one of the meneal jobs they have open above me. I say, “Thank you for your feedback.”
I hope to see you in the checkout line in the future.
[Listen to the Deep Dive explore the concepts of The Happy Cashier.]
The hope I see in others
becomes the hope I have for myself,
my life, and my own journey.
– The Happy Cashier
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