one and zero

*the one and the zero*

splitting the atomic family

The moment is frozen in time, haunting me all of these days. A binary choice. A fork in our timelines. A loss of everything I understood to be important in life. An end.

I live my life in widening circles
that reach out across the world.
I may not ever complete the last one,
but I give myself to it.
I circle around God,
that primordial tower.
I have been circling for thousands of years,
and I still don’t know: am I a falcon,
a storm, or a great song?
Book of Hours: Love Poems to God
Rainer Maria Rilke

*Let’s Begin*

Unsweetened

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Falkner or Salinger?

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Oh my God, What Have I Done?

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Southern Charmer

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Adjusting Expectations

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Becoming Vapor

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Forced Reconfiguration (unfinished)

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My Fouth Angel

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Loss of Signal

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The Bridge

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Bite Down on This

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Loss of Great Expectations

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little star nearly arrives

virgin olive oil – catching the babies

planes into the towers

life in the balance

the swallow (taken twice a day)

the ladder (martha’s)

the alcoholic in my bedroom

spite ghosts (the instagram iPod post)

today is going to be a great day and here’s why (taking kids to nyc)

the class clown is dead (brother dies, apple, robin williams, resetting my tragjectory)

sex becomes her (lori)

don’t you want to try? (later convo w lori – add “my dad’s hair is not red” moment

this is not what depression looks like

a second opinion

in my mind

coming together (laney and cooper)

not my priority – montana and hawaii

an angle – cindi’s love and caring – the video moment from the ladies

a job

mom

darkness

forced reconfiguration

the last fork (k v j horseshoe bay)

boobs

what do you want from life? (the tubes song, a maxim, priorities)

making her happy

a writer after all

emergence

finding the one (music metaphor, off the beat, off my map, patience, understanding, ultimately choosing love and unwavering support rather than …)

do you need anything? (my mo, how can I help, connect, love, the people in my life?)

i am all i need

one

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