I’ve hit the newest evolution of my mindfulness practice.
Let it be. What currently is happening is not completely up to me. What I can control I will move forward with focused time and monetization as the goal. Time to sell the book, the screenplay, or a kidney.
If I allow now to be unhappy and unpleasant and content, I can begin to move forward without the unhealthy drive of previous reboots. I am unspooling from my previous attempts at relationships, fame, and daily survival. I’ve had many easy shortcuts in my life. Today, is not one of them.
I find my energy by pushing back against something. Today, my temp job is the point where I’m resting my fulcrum. To push forward to the next level I have got to focus and stop pushing the river.
I am trying to make a job happen. Make a girlfriend happen.
I am letting it be today, and letting life happen as it unfolds. I did have some good feedback on a potential job submission by a local talent agency that sought me out. It’s a company that’s in the cloud business, and I’m perfect for the role. Now, I have to do what it takes, show up honestly, and give them my positive approach to building and growing businesses online.
And, I continue to put in applications. I continue to go to work.
Today was odd. I was preparing myself for a long day when a text came in from my dentist, the “delivery day” is today. Rather than be at the store at 11 am I needed to be at their office at 12:30. Unexpected day off.
Sure, I’m completely numb and can’t feel my nose, but the next level in my oral health and wellness has been installed. I’m a bit disoriented. Happy. Excited. Hopeful. Ready for the next big thing.
Rest and recovery is what I must attend to at this moment, but today I will put the full book sales package together. I have the top ten targets. I have to send out the kits.
I’ve taken evasive action on the cash flow front as well. I sold all of my stock and am looking into a heloc loan from my mortgage company. Makes me think of quitting my cashier job, but… Not just yet, please.
I’m ready for the change. I’m ready for the horoscope for today to be true. Unlocking all of my future health and wealth. I start again today. This time, not from zero, but from a confident and expansive bloom of creative energy.
Let. It. Be.
The other shit is not up to me.
