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Even our understanding of the universe is changing. Dark energy, the force pushing the universal expansion of space, is now showing signs of slowing. What? What was a constant is now a variable. The universe is on psychedelics.
“Dark energy makes up about 68–70% of the total energy content of the universe.” – University of Chicago.
Einstein’s “Cosmological Constant (Λ) was originally introduced by Einstein in his field equations. It forms a fundamental anchor of his entire cosmology. From today’s scientific community,
“If new data confirms that universe expansion is slowing rather than accelerating, it would force a major shift in our understanding of dark energy. The central role of dark energy in current cosmology is to explain the accelerating expansion observed over the last few decades. A deceleration could imply that either dark energy is weakening or evolving with time, or that the phenomenon itself may need to be reinterpreted or replaced in cosmological models.”
The constant is no longer as constant as originally discovered in 1998. The powerful new instruments show that dark energy expansion is decreasing. The constant is slowing down. The model of the universe that forms much of our belief about time and space is now put into flux. Science is in flux about dark energy.
In my world, dark energy is things that are prohibiting or inhibiting me from achieving my creative purpose. Either an activity is toward the goal or away from the goal. The power of mindfulness can help you cut out the poor habits and build more healthy ones. Move more of your life in the direction of your dreams. What you are thinking right now, that’s you. That’s consciousness. If you are ruminating on scary thoughts, catastrophic futures, or unsustainable losses, that is what your life feels like to you. What you are now: your thoughts.
And, you are not your thoughts. You are a body. An electrical system. A spiritual human on a radio network. Be here now was the Ram Das’s battle cry. What about be there now?
Today, I’m practicing both be there now: I am successful and happy, and the be here now: this is my present moment, my job, my joy. One fuels the other. One reminds me of the temporary nature of time. This hard patch will come to an end. Signs are already in the air. November is my month. Days get shorter, colder, and I get stronger and more wild-eyed.
By learning to change your brain loops from negative thoughts to positive ones, you begin the process of redirecting your life more appropriately. You should go for what makes your heart happy. Delay will not help. Hurry will not help. Steady motion toward your goal. Persistence. Continuing commitment of time and effort. Dark energy has little to do with us at the human level, but everything to do with us on the god level. Is god pulling back the accelerator clutch on dark energy? Is god fucking with Einstein and thus us humans? Is this a cosmic joke?
One dark energy in my life is my militaristic, fanatic son. He’s terrified of violence. He packs a loaded pistol in the crotch of his pants. At all times. Sleeps with it. Knows that his mind is warped around the gun thing, refuses to change, or take responsibility for his lack of time management. He’s falling behind with the woman who is paying his bills. If he loses her, well, maybe he can join me at the grocery store. (Ha ha.) A different store than mine, of course.
I want what’s best for him. I meant to ask him if he knew that the other day when we had breakfast and a walkabout. A year ago, we were the oppressors, the enemy, the fucking parents. His mom moved him from his apartment to my house. She’s there for him. He’s a mama’s boy by divorce. Not his fault. He doesn’t want to explore his side of the story or make any adjustments. Instead, he’s leaning into a gun fantasy world, with survival kids, med packs, food rations, and weaponry. Lots of weaponry.
Another dark energy is the current economic chaos being fomented by the president and his ship of fools. It makes jobs harder to find, companies more suspicious and overwhelmed. I’ve been active in my job hunt for 9 months. I’ve still got two in play, at the moment, but it’s been a long road of nothing and nada. The economic instability is hard on small and medium-sized businesses. Hard on everyone but the ultrawealthy.
The penultimate dark energy is my father-son-father struggle. My dad was an alcoholic asshole. I am too nice and accommodating to my son, hoping to regain some of our lost love. My son is fighting against me on the outside, but crushing himself on the inside. He’s not doing what he needs to be doing. He’s not looking for jobs. He’s betting everything on this one project. A project that he is not managing very well. The owner is a woman who has taken a motherly care of him. He’s been successful on playing the mama’s boy link so far, but he’s not getting paid again until the first “working” version of the web app is done.
He’s a manipulator. There are no limits.
The ultimate dark energy, of course, is my own flickering quick mind. On an up, there are no limits. On a down, tear down the temple of love and knowledge I’ve built over the last fifteen years, torch my creative work.
It’s important for me to pull the dark energy apart in my life. Separate what is mine from what is not mine. Understand what my options are with or without others. I am learning to harness anger. Learning to be patient and active at the same time. Writing with the idea of an audience, but writing with abandon and zeal for the audience of one, me. Singing the song of myself, to myself, at the moment. I’d like to get some readers. I don’t have any expendable cash. No fun money.
I will not be in this stubborn spot forever. I am striving and reaching for higher rungs of the ladder. No fear of failure, only fear of failing to give it a real shot. Put your eggs in multiple baskets, but focus on this one, only this one, for a year. See what that effort brings. Simplify life around that goal. Reduce churn. Increase health, time, and earning capacity.
Never give up.
Today, as I was nearing the end of my grocery shift an older lady approached me with a Jesus-look in her eyes. “You are radiant.”
“I’m sorry?”
“You helped me a minute ago. I noticed your light right away. You glow.”
“Well, thank you. I’ll take a blessing anywhere I can.”
She gave me a cross on a printed card.
“Oh, thank you. I am blessed.”
“Yes, you are.”
“Here,” I said. “I’ll share a blessing with you, too. I used to say to a friend, ‘God bless you.’ He always replied, ‘God bless us.’ So, I’m thinking that. ‘God bless us.'”
Never fucking give up.
